Thursday, April 7, 2011


I've always thought that word was funny. Sourpuss I remember once when I was maybe 9 or 10 and I had just found a load of self confidence and started standing up to my brother, or whoever because I was made fun of for having freckles, or being chubby, or whatever it is he and his friends felt they could make fun of me for. My mom had said something to me that I didn't like ( I can't remember what!) and I gave some smart ass reply ( which was common, LOL still is!) and she said "you need to go to your room little miss sourpuss" It always kind of stuck. So now when I see girls/women that have major attitude problems all I can think of is man, what sourpuss!

Times have a really changed Haven't they? When I was in highschool the big thing was AIM or AOL chat rooms and the regular old telephone and beepers.. Do those even exist anymore? Now we have facebook, twitter, myspace, texting,blogging, etc etc. I'm sort of sad that people don't pick up the phone much. It was fun to make new friends through chat rooms and then log onto Aim and have someone message you. Those things have changed into all this other social networking now. While I do enjoy blogging and facebooking sometimes some stranger will do something that just blows me out of the water. People have really lost a lot of self confidence. They have lost real people skills, and can now hide behind their computer screen. behind a blog. People who might otherwise be shy in real life are total arrogant, bullies on the internet.

I avoid drama at all costs. I have 150 cast members in my business and deal with enough teeny bopper drama from them. I don't need to be apart of drama from the internet, from people I don't even know.

Sometimes words can come across different through text, and unless you really know that person in real life, you wont know if they are being sarcastic, mean, opinionated, etc. I've been at fault for this. I'm sure we all have. But if I have offended someone, and they let me know, I'm quick to look at my mistake, apologize and move on. What else can I do? I wish other people would do the same thing. Realize that you're putting your life in the open for people to read. Realize not everyone is going to share your opinion. Realize we all have different personalities, and just because you might not understand where someone is coming from doesn't give you the right to make a judgmental remark about that persons character. And the blogger/twitter gangs? Really? girls get their online best girlfriends, then have them all gang up on one person in an open forum just because they can. So wrong on so many levels. It completely makes me want to run the other direction with social networking. We're all suppose to be networking. Having fun. Getting to know new people.We all put glimpses of our life out there for others to read. We want feedback. We want encouragement. But I guarantee nobody wants to be bullied or harassed behind a screen.

So in conclusion, I just hope we can all be adults while on public sights. I delete, unfollow, and walk away from anyone I see doing the above mentioned things. It's not nice and is extremely immature.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011


I've probably had every hair color imaginable. I started coloring my hair when I was 13. Yup, that young. My mom started letting me get some highlights, which moved into blue or green or purple streaks ( what? I was a cool kid!)and then I wanted really dark purple hair, which moved into wanting really blonde hair, which then went back to wanting dark black hair, etc. You get the point. I've colored my hair a lot over the last 15 years.

For the last 5 or 6 years I've been rocking a shorter, blonde hair style. All different variations of blonde, but blonde none the less.


This was maybe 3 years ago?


This was last year ( probably my favorite color/hairstyle)


Look at those cute little babies? oh, they grew up so fast! But my hair here, longer,light brown with blonde highlights.

Last year I went to a new stylist in Portland and she completely FRIED my hair. I'm talking bleach blonde, and worried to comb it out. When I got into Sacramento for our Halloween season I went running to my old stylist. I walked in, she cringed and absolutely refused to do anything more to my hair ( that involved bleach) so.. I bring you to where I am today.


Not the best picture, because you can't see the length, but it's dark brown and past my shoulders at this point.

I've been at this color, and growing it out since August and frankly? I need to freshen it up. It's Spring ( well, somewhere.. because it's not here yet in Oregon)
I know I can't and wont go all the way blonde for awhile, I know I don't want to go short for awhile, but I certainly need to give it back some life.

I have an appointment today to get my hair cut and colored so we'll see what myself and the stylist can come up with. If I can remember, I'll have her snap a picture of the length and the true color.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011



I need Spring to get here, really. I took this picture last year around this same time. it was a balmy 75 degrees that day. This week? We have snow in our forecast.


Weight watchers week 4

Moving right along aren't we? I fully expected to be going into week 4 with at
least 10 lbs off. But unfortunately that just didnt happen. I did have a loss this week of 1 lb. I know it's still a loss, but honestly? I wanted more. I worked really, really hard. I went to the gym 3 times during the week and had 1 boot camp workout. I worked really hard on staying within points and only used my exercise points. I left every single one of my weekly points alone. I really expected at least a 3, since my pants felt a bit looser and I had worked hard. But whatever. At this point there is nothing else I can do. I'm following the rules. I'm working out. Eating healthy.

I posted on twitter a few days ago that I was upset about my loss. I reached out to a few different people and had some great feed back... well, other then the drama that came of it from one girl, but whatever, she doesn't matter. I know I'm not the only one who struggles with this...It would be a lot different if I was sitting on my ass eating pizza and ice cream everyday. But I'm not. I'm eating grilled chicken. vegetables, fruit, whole wheat pasta. So like I said, I'm just not entirely sure where the issue is coming from.

I had an OB appointment today. I went in originally for my yearly "women" test and with a list of questions about why we're having no luck getting pregnant. I also mentioned the 40 lb weight gain in 2 years and how hard I've struggled to get it off. She said it's more then likely related, and we've begun our first series of tests.

I can't even begin to describe the weight that was lifted off my shoulders. I have felt like a complete failure the last few weeks ( body wise) and I know it's out of my control right now.

So as of right now, I have an ultra sound scheduled next week, and labs scheduled next month. I guess I have to wait until day 3 of my period to get the best results. I just hope that doesn't happen while I'm in Florida ( 18 more days, squeeeee!!)Once we get results back, we'll move forward from there. My DR is an obgyn doctor but also specializes in infertility, so it's nice to not have to move between several doctors to get some answers.

I'll keep you updated on the process, because I think there are others out there going through the same thing I am.

Week 1 loss: 3 lbs
Week 2 loss: 1 lb
Week 3 gain:.5 lb
Week 4 loss: 1 lb
Total loss: 4.5 lbs