Sunday, January 9, 2011


>We're preparing for a mini vacation on Tuesday to Southern California. We're going with a good friend down to Disneyland for 4 days and I can't freaking wait! We decided to stay home for New Years Eve, so we were able to swing this mini vacation into our budget. The best part is; We're Flying! We usually just drive, but since it's a short trip we're going to fly. Instead of a 16 hour road trip it will take us 4 hours of flying ( with a few hours in SF for a layover!)

> I'm going through major mommy guilt about leaving Spencer at a dog kennel. We've always got to leave him with our family and friends, and this time we just don't have that available, so he has to stay in a kennel. We've checked a few out and ultimately decided on one based on the fact they offer suites and potty breaks. He literally has his own "hotel" room equipped with a radio, TV & outside access. He gets 3 walks, and a kong toy before bed. If I didn't feel guilty about leaving him, I'd be laughing at this ridiculous situation, but none the less, he'll be well taken care of I'm sure.

>I am doing 2 gym classes today, 2 tomorrow plus a personal training session. I'm really trying to knock out some major work, since we'll be on vacation. I know we'll be on our feet 16 hours a day walking around the park, but I just don't want to have to start back at square one when we get back. It will be interesting to see what my body band tells me I've burned while walking at Disney.

>I'm going through short hair withdraw. I've taken a year to grow my hair out, and then I dyed it brown. But I'm now wishing I had short blonde hair again! I think the hair debacle with forever be a love hate relationship.

>I still have Christmas decor up. I know, I'm lame and lazy. But we literally put it up 4 days before we left for all our Christmas travel. So I feel like I needed a few more weeks to enjoy it's festiveness. But now? it's just mocking me, and begging me to put it away. Maybe before our trip. Maybe not. LOL we'll see how that goes.

>Valentines day stuff makes me sick. Especially when it's in stores the day after Christmas.

>I'm addicted to playing angry birds on my iphone. It literally consumes hours of my time.

It feels good to empty out my brain!

Saturday, January 8, 2011


I have 3 New Years resolutions this year.

1) To pay more attention to my writing and blog..
I love looking back a year ago and seeing what we were doing in our lives, what was in my head, and how far I've come along. Truthfully, I've given up on this blog many, many times. I've questioned my sanity when it comes to writing, because deep down, I'm not sure I want to share my life with everyone. I have good days and bad days. I'm self conscious. I fight with my fiance. I'm not that close to my family. I've miscarried. I'm opinionated. I think to myself? who wants to read my reality? It seems all the blogs I read are sugar coated. Girls I felt connected with, I no longer do, because they have become "mommy" bloggers, who seem to have perfect lives. ( or at least that's how they portray themselves). But the truth is, "I" want to read my blog. And therefore, I will write for me. I wont sugar coat things. I'll put my life out there for those to read, and you can either accept it, or turn away. It's ME. It's who I am.

2) Work on my health and fitness.
I've been working on this over the last year, and again I have good days and bad days.
My worst fear came true November16th. My grandmother passed away. Out of my entire family she was the only one I connected with. She understood me, and guided me. She died at 64 years old. let me say that again. She died at 64 years old! That's TOO young! She had a whole life to live. But she chose to smoke. For years. And ultimately, her lungs gave up.
It made me realize life is too short, and the choices we make right now affect our future. I want to be there for my kids, and for their kids, and their kids and so on. I want to be healthy, and active.
 ( for reference, my grams did stop smoking 2 years ago. but the damage was already done)

And so: I've thrown out my entire pantry and started over. We're doing lots of organic produce & lean meats. I've hired a personal trainer, and bought a body media fit band. I should be close to my goal weight by July if I keep up the pace that I'm at, and I'm happy with that. It's not a fast weight loss, but it's a life changing one.

3) Get married & have a baby

Both are works in progress. We have some news on the marriage front but aren't willing to share just yet. We made a decision that works best for us, but might not sit well with our family. That's all the details I can say on the marriage term, but I do promise to jump into more detail as soon as we tell our families.

As far as having a baby. Let's just say we're not stopping it. I'm pretty sure I have some fertility issues, and now that we just got a new health care plan, We're going to start testing at the end of March. Ideally we'll be pregnant before summer. I'm really hoping for a winter baby, since that will allow us enough time home before our Halloween season begins, but at this point...I'll take what I can get.

So there you have it. I'm back on the blog bandwagon, I'm working on ME and working on becoming a family with C.

Saturday, January 1, 2011


I'm baaaack!

this is a short post, but I have lots more coming. Once I get caught up on laundry and trying to get my house in order for the cleaners, ill be posting!