Wednesday, March 28, 2012


I'm still trying to find my place in this whole being married, and 4 months pregnant thing. Some days I forget I'm pregnant because I'm still in the honeymoon stage of marriage. other days I feel like my belly is growing so quick and there are so many changes happening, I can't breathe. I do feel like I'm coming into a middle ground though. I feel like I do have balance with my everyday life, and for that? I'm thankful.

I'm thankful for so many things. I can't express that enough to the people I love and to myself. I really thought I would never be in the place I am. With cancelled weddings, miscarriages, constantly picking up our lives and going back and fourth from Oregon to California for our business. It all seems like such a blur, but I know deep down it's what's shaped me. I don't overlook the simple thing my husband does. Like, bring me cold rags when I have a migraine, cleaning out my car, rubbing my belly in the middle of the night. They are things I wouldn't have noticed before. But I'm thankful that I do now.

I'm also thankful for the relationship I have with my mom. We weren't always close. In fact, for a long time as a teenager I had a very strong hate for her. We are complete opposites. I actually went to live with my grandma for 2 years because I couldn't stand to be in the same room as my mom. I'm not sure what triggered any of that as a kid, other then having very different personalities, but it was something I was so upset about. We've always talked, we've always had respect for one another, we just didn't always like each other. It's not like that now. It really changed when my grandma passed away. I think we both made a effort to be involved and slowly but surely we built our own connection. I'm thankful we have that now. I'm thankful I can call her at anytime an she'll just listen, or vice versa. I love my mom whole heartily and I'm so thankful to be able to say that.

I'm thankful for a roof over our head. It's not my dream home, and wasn't even suppose to be our home for more then 3 months. But we've made it a home, and it's nice to come back from a long day at work or traveling to a comfy us place. It will serve as the place we bring our baby home to, and will have been pressed in our memory as the place where we spent our first year of marriage.

I'm thankful for a healthy pregnancy. I still feel like I'm in denial about the whole thing. But then we saw our baby on screen, and the next night felt our baby kick from the outside and my brain suddenly clicked on that we ARE doing this, you ARE growing a little human who depends on every ounce of your being. I'm so excited to finish our my pregnancy and welcome our beautiful baby into the world.

I'm thankful for real friends. We've had people come in and out of our life over the last several years, and the ones that stayed are the ones that mean the most. We're not the easiest people to stay in contact with, as we're on the go a lot. Unfortunately not a lot of people understand that. We can't make it to every birthday party, bar outing, dinner out, etc. We do try our best though, and I feel like our core group of friends understands and doesn't judge us.

While it's a materialistic item, I'm thankful for my iphone. It took us a while to get on the smart phone kick, but once we did? so amazing. I love my phone, and the apps I can play with. Some of my favs? Twitter, instagram, what to expect, draw something and the weather app ( what? I like to know how hot or cold it will be!)

So in the end my heart is happy. My love cup? Completely full.

What are YOU thankful for?


LWLH said...

So many things to be thankful for :)